So many changes are happening in my life. At times it feels a little overwhelming, I find myself asking a lot of questions. Questions like,”Am I doing the right things?”, “Can I better myself?” I guess the past week I been having some “self doubt” so to speak. Being a single parent is full of worry, I just want to do right by my kids. I know Lilly loves going to school and she is learning so much. It’s funny the other day her and I were talking back and forth about her day what her plains were haha.. She is 5 by the way haha. That’s when I realized that she is starting to come into her own. It’s so funny to watch both her and Jax (little brother) interact with each other.
I guess other big stress is money.. I guess that’s a lot of people’s problem now a days. God I’ve made so many changes in my life when it comes to spending money. Do I need it or want it? Finding cheaper deals, downgrading my life. I will not give up my internet HAHA. Did away with cable and I find myself not missing it.. Most of my shows I can find on Netflix or Hulu. Besides I find myself watching web show more and more, like Geek and Sundry. I’ve also started reading more, I got hooked on goodreads.com and books have become a new drug for me haha.
Personal life is on the up tho. We’ve know each other for a few years now and things just clicked this year. She has helped me out with my personal issues and I have helped out with her’s. Ever have that little moment when you look at someone and you can see your life with them? Well that is what I had with her… She makes me feel whole again, beyond happy. I really think if things keep going the way they do, she could be the one to bring everything together for me. I must say I was a little jaded from my last relationship, trust was something that had died about a years ago. But she broke through all my walls and I love her and trust her fully. I’ve always liked her, now it’s so much more now. She is an amazing woman and I couldn’t ask for anything more!
I know this post is a little out of place on this blog.. But I realized I don’t have a personal blog, so this will become my own personal everyday/what I find interesting blog haha.
Thank you for reading!!