Personal Update 

So this year(2016) is beyond ridiculous… I mean every year has it’s ups and downs. But it seems this year is one kick after another. 

My father passed away early in the beginning of the year. So I’ve been dealing with that. Trying to at least. Meanwhile it seems like I’ve been having a few medical issue after another. Talking with my Doctor and describing some my problems health and mental. Turns…

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Personal Update 

So this year(2016) is beyond ridiculous… I mean every year has it’s ups and downs. But it seems this year is one kick after another. 

My father passed away early in the beginning of the year. So I’ve been dealing with that. Trying to at least. Meanwhile it seems like I’ve been having a few medical issue after another. Talking with my Doctor and describing some my problems health and mental. Turns…

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Personal Update 

So this year(2016) is beyond ridiculous… I mean every year has it’s ups and downs. But it seems this year is one kick after another. 

My father passed away early in the beginning of the year. So I’ve been dealing with that. Trying to at least. Meanwhile it seems like I’ve been having a few medical issue after another. Talking with my Doctor and describing some my problems health and mental. Turns out I’m suffering from Depression and Anxiety. Which is causing problems with work and my family. Couldn’t deal with a lot of people all at once and would start to panic. 

Never spoke up for myself and just kinda rolled over. Stress eat…. It was a big mess really. But now I’m being medicated for it and things are turning around so to speak. So after moving forward with that, I had my shoulder finally checked out. About 10 years ago I had popped it out of the socket. Then had it violent put back in. Ever since, it’s been giving me problems and getting in the way of my job. At some points I wasn’t able to pick up my kids or nieces and nephews.

*** Need to stop for a moment. Doctor is hooking up with wires. I’ll explain in a minute.***

So after the Doctor looked at my arm and shoulders, had some x-rays done and found that there is a small gap between my clavicle and join. That cause the muscles to slip in and pinch. So he gave me a cortisone shot in the shoulder to help with the pain. Boy that was the weirdest feeling ever haha. But afterwards I was scheduled for physical therapy for the next couple of months. That was a lot of pain. So much I almost called out of work a few times. But now I’m finished with the therapy and get a shot in the shoulder if needed every other month.

Now the more recent updates and issues. While doing a follow up appointment, my Doctor wanted to see how the Depression medication was working as well as my shoulder. So while taking more x-rays, he stop and moved the machine down to the middle of my chest. Then took a series of x-rays and then proceeded to tell me that he found a dark spots on my lungs that wasn’t there before. Gave me a list of what could cause this or what it could be. As well the bad…. So he did some more tests and blood work and told he’ll let me know as soon as possible. Seeing how he was going on vacation that following weekend. Went back to work and almost broke down in front of my friend/boss…. I really didn’t know what to do. The stress of not knowing and waiting. 

I believe it wasn’t till Monday when I heard the news. It turns out that it was scar tissue, likely caused by a violent cough or throwing up.. So as of right now you are wondering why the Doctor is wiring me up? Well my Doctor wanted me to do a sleep test. This also linked to my depression and anxiety. It’s going to be interesting as to what they find in the moring. 

So till then, I will say goodnight!

… Fat Shaming… It’s A Thing

… Fat Shaming… It’s A Thing

“Fat-shaming is not a thing. Fat people made that up. That’s the race card, with no race.” – Nicole Arbour

So with the buzz going around the interwebs about this Nicole Arbour video called “Dear Fat People…”. By the name alone you kinda get an idea on where this is going haha. You can’t find this video on YouTube anymore, they took that down. In fact YouTube took down Nicole Arbour whole channel…

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… Fat Shaming… It’s A Thing

… Fat Shaming… It’s A Thing

“Fat-shaming is not a thing. Fat people made that up. That’s the race card, with no race.” – Nicole Arbour

So with the buzz going around the interwebs about this Nicole Arbour video called “Dear Fat People…”. By the name alone you kinda get an idea on where this is going haha. You can’t find this video on YouTube anymore, they took that down. In fact YouTube took down Nicole Arbour whole channel…

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… Fat Shaming… It’s A Thing

“Fat-shaming is not a thing. Fat people made that up. That’s the race card, with no race.” – Nicole Arbour

So with the buzz going around the interwebs about this Nicole Arbour video called “Dear Fat People…”. By the name alone you kinda get an idea on where this is going haha. You can’t find this video on YouTube anymore, they took that down. In fact YouTube took down Nicole Arbour whole channel & her website is gone as well. Sadly you can see more of her videos on Facebook/Twitter as well as “Dear Fat People…”. I watched the video and was in total bewilderment on what I just saw…. She tries to be funny… It’s not even trying really… It’s the train wreck type of thing, where someone thinks that they are funny. But aren’t.. But they continue anyways and fail on every level. The “Dear Fat People…” was upsetting, more annoying than anything else really. But way beyond called for. I’ve watched some of the other videos that she had made. Again,  bewilderment….

This girl really has no talent. I mean if you go to her Wiki page it lists off her Dance and Cheerleading career. Lack of music career. I mean the whole thing reads like what we call in the comic world; “A One Shot”. Now let me state that my “internet career” isn’t anything magical as well. But I stick to what I know: Blogging, Podcasts, Gaming! I have a normal job, I have to save up to go to conventions or events. I rarely get a free pass invites events, etc. You know what? That is fine really. I thankful for what I have and where I’m at and the people who I know/work with on a everyday basis.

Anywho, that’s off topic…. But this video is way beyond anything of rational thought. She goes on to promote Fat Shaming. Stating that we should Fat Shame people into losing weight.. That’s not how this works. That’s not how any of this works!

“Fat-shaming is not a thing. Fat people made that up. That’s the race card, with no race.”

“If [I] offend you so much that you lose weight, I’m OK with that, You are killing yourself.”

“What are you gonna do, fat people? Are you gonna chase me?”

You know… It’s a rare thing for me to jump on the internet train when people are upset about some like this. I’m not one you get into the middle of internet/YouTube drama. But this hit a cored with myself. I as a kid and as an adult, have had this never ending battle with weight. In middle school and freshmen year high school I was at 300 lbs. At the end of high school in to college years I got down to 160! Then 185 and that is normal for my size, being 6’2. But over the past few years I’ve been going between 185 to 290. I’m at 260 right now. I know in my younger years the weight was a hard topic for me and was vary embarrassed about how I looked and was made fun of. But now a days I really don’t care what people think, most of the time. I find myself wanting to lose weight, not for other people. But for healthy reasons. Oh sure I have my vices and a lot of people do! And that is okay! I’m sure my guilty pleasures aren’t going to go away anytime soon. HAHA Just some nights you just want M&M’s!

But this whole things is blown up and people like boogie2988 or Meghan Tonjes have made a response video to this “Dear Fat People…”. It’s nice to see the other side of the coin and people react in the appropriate matter. Here are the videos below:

Anyways. There is my two cents. I’m happy with who I am and how I look. If that bothers people, then I think they need to take a look into a mirror at them self’s. Because people like this Nicole Arbour state that they are doing for a laugh, it’s all a joke. It’s really not.. No tact what so ever….

Please feel free to comment below and share your story or thoughts on this issues!! I would really like hear them..

Poor little guy

It’s going on 6 in the morning and I’m still awake. Seems my youngest (Jax) is haven’t some bad breathing issues tonight. Gave him is meds and everything so that’s not a problem. Is just having to sit here to make sure everything kicks in/works right, so to speak.
I know both kids are starting to have small colds, I just hope it doesn’t turn into anything bad. I like sleep, I miss sleep haha.
Maybe I can train the cat in helping around the house and with the kids. God that would be funny to see haha.

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