Keep Rolling With The Punches

So after almost a month being away, I am slowly making my way back on to things. Sadly, a lot of events did not turn out like I had hoped or just did not happen at all. The trial that was set for the 24 of February did not happen and was pushed back to May. This was due to a criminal trial that was conflicting with our case. The frustrating part was no one was ready for it, we all knew the other trial was there. But we were told that it would be okay, but that all changed the day before the trial. The day before! Ugh, so here we are with everything out and really to go. Now we must pack everything up and wait again for May.

The history of this trial has gone on for almost two years now and all of us want to see the of this. I know my kids want to see the end and to be able to continue moving forward with their lives. I mean this custody battle has gone on for several years. Sure, there were sometimes where things worked out and the ability to co-parent was possible. But after the some of the action of the other party, I cannot let it happen anymore. So, after getting legal help, this battle has been going on officially for two years now. Let me tell you, the stress and frustration are amazing.

At times it is like we are living two different worlds. The other party has this, we are right and everyone else has done us wrong attitude. Almost fighting with a brink wall, almost. But with both families fighting to keep the kids in the state, I am grateful for all the help and support I have received. I can safely say I would not be where I am in all of this, it was not for some key individuals. For that I would like to say thank you.

Sorry if some of this seems kind of vague, I am trying my hardest to reveal names and certain information. Not that I am worried about hurting my case any, just do not the other parties involve to case more drama.

So here we are… Trial is now set for May, kids are still in at home learning. Hopefully, this will change by the end of the month and go into some hybrid learning plan. I am still looking around for a job. I think that was the frustrating part about all this, I finally got to a point in my job where I did not have to worry about money again. Then COVID changed all that. On top of this I have Child Support still billing, even tho the kids are in my care and have been for several years now. So, there is a balance due, and they say they cannot do anything because the case is now in trial. But that does not stop them from taking my pay, tax returns, and yes even my stimulus check. I was able to stop them from trying to take my unemployment payments. But damn… It has been a long and stressful year. I think was annoys me the most about the Child Support process, is that have issued me two refund check, all while billing me every month. The terrible part is that the check that were refunded to me, do not even make a dent into the amount they owe me. We are talking thousands of dollars here.

Right now, I am here standing around waiting for things to happen. Just trying to find another job, not to sure what I want to do. Kind of at the point where I can go into different directions, yet I cannot help this feeling of being scared/nervous. I am waiting on the trial to start and actually have ground rules in place. I find myself trying to make things feel normal for everyone at home, even tho things are far from normal haha. Thank you COVID for that. But there are several good things going on. Kids are healthy and both have 3.0+ GPA, they are about see their Grandparents and some of their friends in person. At least the ones that are within’ our inner circle. We have our monthly family get together, games and movie nights. I even finished a few art projects at need to be done in the worst way. Plus, not to mention the wedding planning going on!

So hopefully I will get back to writing on there and share my little life misadventures with you all. Even maybe get back to podcasting soon and finish with a few other projects. At any rate, thank you for being here and reading my rant about life.

So Long, and Thanks for All the Fish

So this post is more on the personal side. Which I’ve been know to do from time to time on here, aside from the nerdy fandom posts.
2013 was not the best year for myself.  Oh sure I had a few winning moments. But sadly that only made 10% of the events good. Where as the bad was around 90%… Lost one of the many battles over custody for my children, lost my job, car, lots of financial problems and even got arrested towards the end of the year.
Also founded out that I’m suffering from Depression and what would be the being stages of Agoraphobia. For those who don’t know what Agoraphobia is, it’s when you an anxiety disorder characterized by anxiety in situations. Like in wide-open spaces, as well as uncontrollable social situations such as the possibility of being met in shopping malls, airports etc. Also causes panic attacks in those environments. There are better definitions on Wikipedia if you care to look it up :).
So this week finished all the left over drama from 2013. Paving the way for a new beginning in 2014. A vary much needed new beginning…
After being hit with the proverbial enlightenment stick.  I’ve sought out getting help from a therapist and started taking parenting classes. I’ve Also registered for college in the fall. So today was the first day of therapy and it went rather well.  It was more of a getting to know each other type of meeting, haha to get a better understanding of my shenanigans.
With a new being on the horizon, I’ve started/join some new creative outlets.  One being this new podcast! Yay! This is something I’ve always wanted to do. But never knew how and or participate in one. Let alone on who to talk to about such a matter haha :). That was until last week when I got a tweet from a follower about joining his podcast group! At first I was nervous, not to sure of myself(Thank you Agoraphobia). But I pushed through it and jumped on board, because I knew I wasn’t going to get another change like this for awhile. Still a little nervous about everything, but I manage to finish an episode the other night. And went rather well, had a lot of fun and laughs. Can’t wait to record new episodes :). I’ve also started making a new layout for the website as well.  Things like a new logo, update the HTML5, I’ve also been playing around with c++. I’m also looking to add new writers to my site.
But all in all, things are getting better. 2014 as a “A New Hope” feeling to it.  I want to keep moving forward and make myself a better person.
So in ending this post I say to 2013,”So Long, and Thanks for All the Fish.”