Keep Rolling With The Punches

So after almost a month being away, I am slowly making my way back on to things. Sadly, a lot of events did not turn out like I had hoped or just did not happen at all. The trial that was set for the 24 of February did not happen and was pushed back to May. This was due to a criminal trial that was conflicting with our case. The frustrating part was no one was ready for it, we all knew the other trial was there. But we were told that it would be okay, but that all changed the day before the trial. The day before! Ugh, so here we are with everything out and really to go. Now we must pack everything up and wait again for May.

The history of this trial has gone on for almost two years now and all of us want to see the end of this. I know my kids want to see the end and to be able to continue moving forward with their lives. I mean this custody battle has gone on for several years. Sure, there were sometimes where things worked out and the ability to co-parent was possible. But after the some of the action of the other party, I cannot let it happen anymore. So, after getting legal help, this battle has been going on officially for two years now. Let me tell you, the stress and frustration are amazing.

At times it is like we are living two different worlds. The other party has this, we are right and everyone else has done us wrong attitude. Almost fighting with a brink wall, almost. But with both families fighting to keep the kids in the state, I am grateful for all the help and support I have received. I can safely say I would not be where I am in all of this, it was not for some key individuals. For that I would like to say thank you.

Sorry if some of this seems kind of vague, I am trying my hardest not to reveal names and certain information. Not that I am worried about hurting my case any, just do not the other parties involve to case more drama.

So here we are… Trial is now set for May, kids are still in at home learning. Hopefully, this will change by the end of the month and go into some hybrid learning plan. I am still looking around for a job. I think that was the frustrating part about all this, I finally got to a point in my job where I did not have to worry about money again. Then COVID changed all that. On top of this I have Child Support still billing, even tho the kids are in my care and have been for several years now. So, there is a balance due, and they say they cannot do anything because the case is now in trial. But that does not stop them from taking my pay, tax returns, and yes even my stimulus check. I was able to stop them from trying to take my unemployment payments. But damn… It has been a long and stressful year. I think was annoys me the most about the Child Support process, is that have issued me two refund check, all while billing me every month. The terrible part is that the check that were refunded to me, do not even make a dent into the amount they owe me. We are talking thousands of dollars here.

Right now, I am here standing around waiting for things to happen. Just trying to find another job, not to sure what I want to do. Kind of at the point where I can go into different directions, yet I cannot help this feeling of being scared/nervous. I am waiting on the trial to start and actually have ground rules in place. I find myself trying to make things feel normal for everyone at home, even tho things are far from normal haha. Thank you COVID for that. But there are several good things going on. Kids are healthy and both have 3.0+ GPA, they are about see their Grandparents and some of their friends in person. At least the ones that are within’ our inner circle. We have our monthly family get together, games and movie nights. I even finished a few art projects at need to be done in the worst way. Plus, not to mention the wedding planning going on!

So hopefully I will get back to writing on there and share my little life misadventures with you all. Even maybe get back to podcasting soon and finish with a few other projects. At any rate, thank you for being here and reading my rant about life.

Times Are Hard. But Things Are Looking Up

So it’s 3am, just finished Highlander (greatest movie ever!) and I realized I haven’t written a “real”post in over two weeks. Plus it doesn’t help the interweb was out for a week. The living pay check to check is getting old. I mean I know things are hard for people now a days, jobs are hard to come by, specially in my area of Oregon. But I also look at what I have and feel some what blessed/lucky for what I have. I could be out on the streets with a cardboard sign asking for a hand out.
I have a roof over my head, my kids are healthy with full tummies and clean clothes. Also can’t forget the fat cat (who turned 8 this last month.) But that doesn’t stop me from wanting more, wanting to better myself/life. That brings me into the second week.
I did get the interweb back on and I also asked my girlfriend to move in with me! So we’ve been moving everything in this past week/weekend, I think we’re just about done. Yay! I’m hoping this marks a time for change for the both of us. I know it’s not easy going into a relationship with someone who has kids. Let alone move in with them haha. But things work, we’ve known each other for awhile now and things are just relaxed between us. Plus we work together to meet our goals! Wait what!? Who does that now a days? It’s also nice to see the kids happy 🙂 about everything.
I do have a lot of posts I’ve been planning and setting to the side. Just with everything going on, I haven’t had a moment to myself to sit down and write everything out. I know we have a tabletop night coming up. I hope so, rather over due for one (Care-bear! Make it happen! I know you’re reading this haha)
Off topic, I found this at the store the other day… I had a good laugh at this haha, someone not paying attention or was it just pure laziness?

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But at any rate, things are on the up from what they were a year ago. I just hope they keep going that way. At times I feel bad, I’m not use to having someone wanting to help me. So use to doing everything myself, specially when it comes to the kids.
Thanks for reading, again sorry for a random little posts. I have more coming tomorrow and the rest of the week.

No need for a Title…. Maybe

So many changes are happening in my life. At times it feels a little overwhelming, I find myself asking a lot of questions. Questions like,”Am I doing the right things?”, “Can I better myself?” I guess the past week I been having some “self doubt” so to speak. Being a single parent is full of worry, I just want to do right by my kids. I know Lilly loves going to school and she is learning so much. It’s funny the other day her and I were talking back and forth about her day what her plains were haha.. She is 5 by the way haha. That’s when I realized that she is starting to come into her own. It’s so funny to watch both her and  Jax (little brother) interact with each other.

I guess other big stress is money.. I guess that’s a lot of people’s problem now a days. God I’ve made so many changes in my life when it comes to spending money. Do I need it or want it? Finding cheaper deals, downgrading my life. I will not give up my internet HAHA. Did away with cable and I find myself not missing it.. Most of my shows I can find on Netflix or Hulu. Besides I find myself watching web show more and more, like Geek and Sundry. I’ve also started reading more, I got hooked on goodreads.com and books have become a new drug for me haha.

Personal life is on the up tho. We’ve know each other for a few years now and things just clicked this year. She has helped me out with my personal issues and I have helped out with her’s. Ever have that little moment when you look at someone and you can see your life with them? Well that is what I had with her… She makes me feel whole again, beyond happy. I really think if things keep going the way they do, she could be the one to bring everything together for me. I must say I was a little jaded from my last relationship, trust was something that had died about a years ago. But she broke through all my walls and I love her and trust her fully. I’ve always liked her, now it’s so much more now. She is an amazing woman and I couldn’t ask for anything more!

I know this post is a little out of place on this blog.. But I realized I don’t have a personal blog, so this will become my own personal everyday/what I find interesting blog haha.

Anywho…

Thank you for reading!!

~Jason