Men Build Things, Then We Die

Men Build Things, Then We Die

Men do not cry. Men do not pout. Men jack you in the fuckin’ jaw and say, “Thanks for comin’ out!”. ― David Della Rocco

So I’ve been rather silent as of late (better part of 2016 and 2017). Mostly on personal things and with good reasons I didn’t want to share or talk about it to much. I’m not one to share my feelings with people, mostly do to the fact it’s no one’s business. But there comes a…

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Men Build Things, Then We Die

Men Build Things, Then We Die

Men do not cry. Men do not pout. Men jack you in the fuckin’ jaw and say, “Thanks for comin’ out!”. ― David Della Rocco

So I’ve been rather silent as of late (better part of 2016 and 2017). Mostly on personal things and with good reasons I didn’t want to share or talk about it to much. I’m not one to share my feelings with people, mostly do to the fact it’s no one’s business. But there comes a…

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Men Build Things, Then We Die

Men do not cry. Men do not pout. Men jack you in the fuckin’ jaw and say, “Thanks for comin’ out!”. ― David Della Rocco

So I’ve been rather silent as of late (better part of 2016 and 2017). Mostly on personal things and with good reasons I didn’t want to share or talk about it to much. I’m not one to share my feelings with people, mostly do to the fact it’s no one’s business. But there comes a point where your tired of the drama and gossip, and you need to speak up. Share your side of the story..

Beginning of the year I had moved out into my friend’s house. There were growing problems between me and my now ex-wife. I know I kinda shut down after my Father had passed away. I really didn’t know how to deal with his death, because it was so random and fast. But with his passing it did open my eyes and brought to light a lot of problems within’ the relationship, that I was turning a blind eye too. Realizing that life is so short. I found myself looking at everything I had, everything I am as a person. Realizing I am not happy.

I found myself changing. Not just physically, mentally as well. I have no time for dramatic BS or 20 questions or “what are you thinking”. The lets talk about your feelings, why are you quite?. Not to mention being called a lair, cheat, just being berated and beaten down. After awhile one starts to think, ” maybe I am those things…?”. But I hit my limit. I couldn’t take it anymore. The fights, the never ending fights. I would find myself sitting in the driveway at home after work.10-15 minutes, sometimes 30 minutes. Just bracing myself for what is to come behind closed doors. I would go to work to relax, to have quite time.

Why do we have share what we are feeling? I mean, yes I get and understand that you want to open up and share things with your partner in crime. But the key word being “WANT”, not feel like you have to. I’m at the point in my life where if I want to tell you something I will. But my thoughts are my own. I don’t like to sit and dwell on things. People make mistakes, it’s life. Forgive them or not. Move on with life… When I realized that the marriage was coming to a end I did have a chance to try and fix things (again) or walk away.. I tried…. But I realized this was not working and need to step back and end it. I was not happy and didn’t want to live like that anymore.. I need to be my own person again. Find out if all the name calling was true.

If that makes me a asshole, then so be it. I’ve been quite long enough about everything. I grew up with strong male figures in my life. My Grandfather was a amazing man, World War II, Fireman, Forrest Service. He was always working and never stopped. My Father… My Father was fantastic. Artist, Forrest Service, ran his own company, he always there for me. I learned so much from them. Grandpa never really shared anything unless he felt it was important, my Father was the same way. But some how when I didn’t open about things, I’m the asshole. And you know what, I’m fully okay with that. I am who I am. I’m a doer and not a talker. I’m not into this coffee house, self help crap.

I had enough of being called names, a lair, a cheat. I had enough of feeling like nothing was ever good enough. So I ended everything and moved out. I made the dramatic life change and started to rebuild my life. For once I’m starting to feel happy again. The stress level has dropped and being able to do things of my own freewill is amazing. Plus I think I’ve become so tired of this whinny ass generation. No respect for history, let alone any knowledge of it. They are to busy worrying about their feelings being hurt, so they sit there and bitch. The talkers… If this sounds like I’m am angry, I am.

So as of right now I’m working on my site, I have a full time job and roof over my head. Two great kids and a nerdy amazing girlfriend. Who I never thought in a million years would go out with me. It was one of those “life is to short” moments and I took a chances and asked her out for a dinner/movie. It was late at night and I was thinking about her and thought why not! Whats the worse she can say? No hahah. But to my surprise she said yes! Wait what? Hahaha. I have to say I love everything about her and her nerdism. I really have no words on how I feel when I’m around her. Happy, relaxed, open, everything is so upfront and straight to the core. No dealing with BS or beating around the bush. It’s nice and refreshing and takes a little getting use to haha, been living in a downward spiral for so long.

Okay, I will end things right here for now.

THANKS FOR COMIN’ OUT!!

Men build things, then we die. It’s in our fucking DNA! That’s what we do! And when it all falls down? We build it right back up again. But this time bigger. BETTER! Look! Look what we can do. Look how fuckin’ beautiful we are. You think the men that built all this had it easy?
Hard men! Doing hard shit! I am so sick of this self help, twelve step, leftover hippie generation bullshit!
Now they don’t want you to do anything, right? Just sit there. Don’t drink. Don’t smoke. Don’t drive fast. Kiss my ass! Fuck it! Do it all I say! Do you think Duke Wayne spent all of his time talking about his feelings with a fuckin’ therapist? There’s no fucking way he did! John Wayne died with five pounds of undigested red meat in his ass. Now that’s a man! Real men hide their feelings. Why? Because it’s none of your fuckin’ business!
Men do not cry. Men do not pout. Men jack you in the fuckin’ jaw and say… Thanks for comin’ out! ― David Della Rocco

The Amish Were Right About Star Trek

The Amish Were Right About Star Trek

So much has been going on the last week. Plus not having internet for that week didn’t help any haha. But I got a new job and that has been eating up a lot of my time, because we’re starting for the ground up and I’m helping train everyone as well. Aside from that I’m balance my podcasting schedule as well and coming up with new topics for Geek Fallout and Eclectic Mayhem. So I have a feeling…

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The Amish Were Right About Star Trek

The Amish Were Right About Star Trek

So much has been going on the last week. Plus not having internet for that week didn’t help any haha. But I got a new job and that has been eating up a lot of my time, because we’re starting for the ground up and I’m helping train everyone as well. Aside from that I’m balance my podcasting schedule as well and coming up with new topics for Geek Fallout and Eclectic Mayhem. So I have a feeling…

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The Amish Were Right About Star Trek

So much has been going on the last week. Plus not having internet for that week didn’t help any haha. But I got a new job and that has been eating up a lot of my time, because we’re starting for the ground up and I’m helping train everyone as well. Aside from that I’m balance my podcasting schedule as well and coming up with new topics for Geek Fallout and Eclectic Mayhem. So I have a feeling somethings might have to change, but I won’t know till next week.

Now we do have  a Eclectic Mayhem podcast coming up this weekend and the theme kinda is Robots (here is the post for the NEW Eclectic Mayhem)  and anything else we see fit haha. Also have a Geek Fallout podcast coming up on Monday and I think we’ll be going over Stargate some more! As for Nerdy Life Of Mine I haven’t been here for the past week or so, do to lack of internet and time. I do have lots to update on and post. Kinda have a stock pile to go over. But India (my sister) has been posting here and there, keeping things going :).

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So the other day in the morning I got this little package in the mail labeled “TrekFan” http://padd.trekfan.org. There I followed Emmett Plant @EmmettPlant on Twitter and join the club on his site. But The pack looked like this:

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Inside was a set of 1993 SkyBox Master Series Star Trek trading Cards. Need I say more? A rather cool way to start off the day haha. The cards I got were Reaching Out To Picard, Praxis Explodes, In The Mind Of V’ger, Lieutenant Wolf, and The Bolians… Plus a checklist, because those are important haha.

unnamedSo thank you to Emmett Plant @EmmettPlant & “TrekFan” http://padd.trekfan.org for the random little gift!

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Anywho! I’ll be posting a new schedule of things to come. I really don’t think NLOM will be affected by the change, but the podcasts times might. Wouldn’t know for sure till next week. Beside it’ll be my and Carly’s 2 year anniversary next week as well. So it might be quite again next week :).

But if you haven’t downloaded or listen to our latest podcast from Eclectic Mayhem, check it out:

Eclectic Mayhem Episode 2: Never Feed Us After Midnight

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And for more Eclectic Mayhem, you can find us on:

Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/eclecticmayhemp0dcast

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And you can always reach us directly at: eclecticmayhempodcast@outlook.com

Also Check out Geek Fallout:

Geek Fallout » Blog Archive » GF Ep #128: Star Wars Swinging & Swapping.

With Derek Ash hosting, Chris Gaida producing and with podcasters Evan Hanson and MissM the crew of the ‘Geek Fallout’ podcast delve into the topic of: ‘Redoing Star Wars with other pop culture characters’

(personally I always wanted to see ‘Magnum PI’ replace ‘Han Solo’ with ‘Harry’ from “Harry and the Hendersons” as Chewbacca. Jessica Fletcher as ‘Mon Mothma’, Justin Bieber as ‘Greedo’…the possibilities are endless…)
And yes you read the title right! The Amish Were Right About Star Trek… This bring an important question, would there be any Amish in the Star Trek universe?
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