Nerdy Shenanigans & Other Life Updates

So this year as been rather busy for myself and for all the good reasons. So later this week I’ll been moving in with my girlfriend or at least starting to move stuff. Plus we’ve been trying to have our anniversary trip now for better part of a month now. Kept having to changed the date do to work and or moving. But I think we finally locked a date in haha.

Also while all this is going on, I’ve gotten back into podcasting. The New Geek Fallout and a new podcast called The Pop Culture Hindsight. I’m rather looking forward to this podcast, mostly do to the fact it’s with Chris Lockhart. Plus Lots of Wizard World stories and other media coverage. I’ve also start something new called The Daily Nerdy Life, it’s a news web page that pulls and shares other blogs, posts, etc. from all over. Something to help new bloggers and old. It has everything from comics, movies and video games. As well as all things pop culture.

In addition to all this, I am also working on a new blog call ASTRO BLog GO!! The main focus of this blog is cartoons and artwork of all kinds, and also share my artwork. Which is something I haven’t done in a long, long time. Just something different from Nerdy Life Of Mine and fun. So yeah.. LOTS of new events going on and can’t wait to share it with you all.

Twitter: @iRoberts3

Instagram: @nerdylifeofmine

P.S. I’m also writing my book in between all this, it’s based around my life and all the fun/weird things that have happened to me. I’ll release more information about it as time goes on.

Random Thoughts

I found myself thinking about my Father today, while I was on my way to my son’s Boy Scouts meeting. I think what started it was when I realized that Father’s Day is coming up. For a split second I thought about calling him.. Then the sad cold truth set in again…

I know it’s been it’s been almost three years since my Father passed away. But it really hasn’t felt like it, I still want to call him and telling him things. In that time there have been so many events that have changed everything about me as a person, as well as my life as a whole. Somethings have been hard to deal with, other’s needed to be done for the better. Good or bad, the choices I made are mine and I don’t regret them for one bit. It’s odd tho.. At this point in life things are going rather well, not perfect and that is fine. I don’t want perfect, I just want to live my life and have it drama free as possible. So far I think I’ve done a rather good job of that. Lilly (my oldest) is coming into her own. Finished ballet, reads all the time and over all super nerd. She has so much personality and a strong mind, it blows me away at times. I forgot she is 10 from time to time.

Jackson’s (my youngest) got into Boy Scouts earlier this year and is moving those the ranks fast. He loves it and draws all the time, he himself has become a mid-manner nerd as well. Everything from comics, Star Wars and Trek, Doctor Who, the list goes on and on. I took them both to Comic Con this year and I have to say that they were in their element. Even my personal life has been going rather well, I’ve been dating someone for almost a year now. Words are at a loss for me to explain to you on how happy I am. She is everything to me, and I’ve still in shock that she said yes to a date hahaha. Always thought that she might be out of my league. That is something else I wish I can share with my Dad.

I just wish my Father was still around, I don’t know if I’ll ever get over it really. I know it’s effective a lot of things I do, This blog for example, my art.. I just stand there and look blankly at the board, even the book I started writing. A lot of it has stop or just become rather lackluster. It’s not that I don’t want to do these things, I have the ideas and drive to do it. But once I start, I drift off and lose focus on everything. I know I want to change these things, but getting there is the hard part. Maybe I need to find another challenge like the Star Trek Book Challenge. I know I have a few Comic Con stories I need to finish. Plus a few updates on some pasted stories I’ve written.

Who know what the future will bring. I know I am looking forward to it.

Happy Father’s Day to the Dads out there!! Keep up the good work and keep everyone safe.

~Jason Roberts

Old Thoughts & Memories

So earlier today I stopped by my storage unit to clean things up. Also start clearing out old junk, so I’ll be able to move it later on next month.

I was doing okay till I opened a box that had a lot of my Dad’s things in it. It wasn’t so much the stuff that got to me. It was the smell… It smelled just like him. All those summers together, those random adventures we had driving from one end of California to the other. I thought I would be alright, but I found myself crying while holding his hat.. But then laughing, because within the hat was pictures of my father making goofy faces. That was my father…. Always trying to make people laugh or happy. In between this ride of emotions, found a old picture of me and him. Now if I remember correctly, this was taken in Santa Barbara California in the late 80s. Printers were becoming a big thing as well the beginnings of the digital photos.

If you look closely most of the picture is done in binary fashion. This has to be one of the coolest pictures I have of us. I thought it was lost so many years ago. But no! I found it! Cleaned it up and placed it in a nice heavy wooden frame.

I do miss you Dad. I guess I’m still trying to work through the fact your not around anymore. I keep finding myself trying to call you or message you. Specially with my youngest going into Boy Scouts. I thought you would really like that..

I just now realized I’m writing this like he would read this post.. Sorry, it happens from time to time. Grief is an odd thing.

Day Two

Of this craptastic head cold or whatever this crap is.. I so done feeling like this, ugh. It feel like I’ve been sleeping for the past 2 days, only to get up to eat or use the bathroom. What really bugs me, I have some many project ideas that I want to do. But ZERO energy to do them.. Even writing this little bit is killing me haha.

Also I had to reformat my computer. It was in the middle of the…

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Day Two

Of this craptastic head cold or whatever this crap is.. I so done feeling like this, ugh. It feel like I’ve been sleeping for the past 2 days, only to get up to eat or use the bathroom. What really bugs me, I have some many project ideas that I want to do. But ZERO energy to do them.. Even writing this little bit is killing me haha.

Also I had to reformat my computer. It was in the middle of the updating the OS and something happened with the WiFi connection and some of the file became corrupt. I wasn’t able to roll it back to the last save point. I lost a lot of programs and some work. but more of my file were still there. So now I have to reinstall everything and come to find out I don’t have a lot of my discs or USB. So all my art programs are gone and photoshop :(. sucks too because Wizard World is coming up. I mean it’s in a few months, but this is a set back I don’t need.

I realize this post has no point, just random thoughts popping out. Well I’m going to make some tea and find something to eat. Try to eat at least, nothing sounds good right now.

Men Build Things, Then We Die

Men Build Things, Then We Die

Men do not cry. Men do not pout. Men jack you in the fuckin’ jaw and say, “Thanks for comin’ out!”. ― David Della Rocco

So I’ve been rather silent as of late (better part of 2016 and 2017). Mostly on personal things and with good reasons I didn’t want to share or talk about it to much. I’m not one to share my feelings with people, mostly do to the fact it’s no one’s business. But there comes a…

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Men Build Things, Then We Die

Men Build Things, Then We Die

Men do not cry. Men do not pout. Men jack you in the fuckin’ jaw and say, “Thanks for comin’ out!”. ― David Della Rocco

So I’ve been rather silent as of late (better part of 2016 and 2017). Mostly on personal things and with good reasons I didn’t want to share or talk about it to much. I’m not one to share my feelings with people, mostly do to the fact it’s no one’s business. But there comes a…

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Men Build Things, Then We Die

Men do not cry. Men do not pout. Men jack you in the fuckin’ jaw and say, “Thanks for comin’ out!”. ― David Della Rocco

So I’ve been rather silent as of late (better part of 2016 and 2017). Mostly on personal things and with good reasons I didn’t want to share or talk about it to much. I’m not one to share my feelings with people, mostly do to the fact it’s no one’s business. But there comes a point where your tired of the drama and gossip, and you need to speak up. Share your side of the story..

Beginning of the year I had moved out into my friend’s house. There were growing problems between me and my now ex-wife. I know I kinda shut down after my Father had passed away. I really didn’t know how to deal with his death, because it was so random and fast. But with his passing it did open my eyes and brought to light a lot of problems within’ the relationship, that I was turning a blind eye too. Realizing that life is so short. I found myself looking at everything I had, everything I am as a person. Realizing I am not happy.

I found myself changing. Not just physically, mentally as well. I have no time for dramatic BS or 20 questions or “what are you thinking”. The lets talk about your feelings, why are you quite?. Not to mention being called a lair, cheat, just being berated and beaten down. After awhile one starts to think, ” maybe I am those things…?”. But I hit my limit. I couldn’t take it anymore. The fights, the never ending fights. I would find myself sitting in the driveway at home after work.10-15 minutes, sometimes 30 minutes. Just bracing myself for what is to come behind closed doors. I would go to work to relax, to have quite time.

Why do we have share what we are feeling? I mean, yes I get and understand that you want to open up and share things with your partner in crime. But the key word being “WANT”, not feel like you have to. I’m at the point in my life where if I want to tell you something I will. But my thoughts are my own. I don’t like to sit and dwell on things. People make mistakes, it’s life. Forgive them or not. Move on with life… When I realized that the marriage was coming to a end I did have a chance to try and fix things (again) or walk away.. I tried…. But I realized this was not working and need to step back and end it. I was not happy and didn’t want to live like that anymore.. I need to be my own person again. Find out if all the name calling was true.

If that makes me a asshole, then so be it. I’ve been quite long enough about everything. I grew up with strong male figures in my life. My Grandfather was a amazing man, World War II, Fireman, Forrest Service. He was always working and never stopped. My Father… My Father was fantastic. Artist, Forrest Service, ran his own company, he always there for me. I learned so much from them. Grandpa never really shared anything unless he felt it was important, my Father was the same way. But some how when I didn’t open about things, I’m the asshole. And you know what, I’m fully okay with that. I am who I am. I’m a doer and not a talker. I’m not into this coffee house, self help crap.

I had enough of being called names, a lair, a cheat. I had enough of feeling like nothing was ever good enough. So I ended everything and moved out. I made the dramatic life change and started to rebuild my life. For once I’m starting to feel happy again. The stress level has dropped and being able to do things of my own freewill is amazing. Plus I think I’ve become so tired of this whinny ass generation. No respect for history, let alone any knowledge of it. They are to busy worrying about their feelings being hurt, so they sit there and bitch. The talkers… If this sounds like I’m am angry, I am.

So as of right now I’m working on my site, I have a full time job and roof over my head. Two great kids and a nerdy amazing girlfriend. Who I never thought in a million years would go out with me. It was one of those “life is to short” moments and I took a chances and asked her out for a dinner/movie. It was late at night and I was thinking about her and thought why not! Whats the worse she can say? No hahah. But to my surprise she said yes! Wait what? Hahaha. I have to say I love everything about her and her nerdism. I really have no words on how I feel when I’m around her. Happy, relaxed, open, everything is so upfront and straight to the core. No dealing with BS or beating around the bush. It’s nice and refreshing and takes a little getting use to haha, been living in a downward spiral for so long.

Okay, I will end things right here for now.

THANKS FOR COMIN’ OUT!!

Men build things, then we die. It’s in our fucking DNA! That’s what we do! And when it all falls down? We build it right back up again. But this time bigger. BETTER! Look! Look what we can do. Look how fuckin’ beautiful we are. You think the men that built all this had it easy?
Hard men! Doing hard shit! I am so sick of this self help, twelve step, leftover hippie generation bullshit!
Now they don’t want you to do anything, right? Just sit there. Don’t drink. Don’t smoke. Don’t drive fast. Kiss my ass! Fuck it! Do it all I say! Do you think Duke Wayne spent all of his time talking about his feelings with a fuckin’ therapist? There’s no fucking way he did! John Wayne died with five pounds of undigested red meat in his ass. Now that’s a man! Real men hide their feelings. Why? Because it’s none of your fuckin’ business!
Men do not cry. Men do not pout. Men jack you in the fuckin’ jaw and say… Thanks for comin’ out! ― David Della Rocco

Alive.. Not Dead…

Alive.. Not Dead…

I have been away for a long time now… Because of that, my Blog is beyond a mess inside and out. It seems that after New Years everything stopped, motivation kinda went out the window.. Not that I wanted to write and share my adventures.. Just when I sit down to write, I look blankly at the screen or become side tracked with something else.

There are also personal reasons why I’ve been away. One…

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Alive.. Not Dead…

Alive.. Not Dead…

I have been away for a long time now… Because of that, my Blog is beyond a mess inside and out. It seems that after New Years everything stopped, motivation kinda went out the window.. Not that I wanted to write and share my adventures.. Just when I sit down to write, I look blankly at the screen or become side tracked with something else.

There are also personal reasons why I’ve been away. One…

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