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Just mild-mannered blogger & podcaster! Fighting a never-ending battle for fandoms & sharing all my misadventures in life.

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Alive.. Not Dead…

I have been away for a long time now… Because of that, my Blog is beyond a mess inside and out. It seems that after New Years everything stopped, motivation kinda went out the window.. Not that I wanted to write and share my adventures.. Just when I sit down to write, I look blankly at the screen or become side tracked with something else.

There are also personal reasons why I’ve been away. One of them being the one year anniversary of my Father’s death… I know at some point I’ll dive into more details on everything at a later date.

So! What is missing so far this year? I glad you asked! I would love to show you want I’ve been slacking on hahaha:

Media coverage of Wizard World Portland 2017

Star Wars Book Challenge

Personal rants and raves

Website layout & new logos

Tech Reviews

New Podcast set up

Yeah…. There is a lot of work ahead of me on here. I might go back to basics and fix everything first. Aside from personal life, there is work life that is eating up a lot of time as well. By the time I finish with work, I really don’t want to do anything else hahaha. BUT! Now having said that, I figure I’d write to you all to let you all know I’m alive! I’m not DEAD! I know some of you sent messages saying “hello”, “how are you?” and or, “are you okay?”. I know I didn’t write back to some of you, I’m sorry about that. I haven’t been on social media much as of late..

At any rate, my goal is to get some writing done this week and weekend. I want to finish the website layout too this weekend!! God things are such a mess, it driving my O.C.D nuts!!

 

So it’s been an interesting month so far. There is so much to write about and share. Plus this Halloween/anniversary weekend was great fun with lots of pictures. So tomorrow or Friday I will share with you all everything that went on in October :). Figure I’d give a update, because I feel I’ve been ignoring my blog this past month haha. 

Anywho! Hope everyone had a safe and fun Halloween! Oooooooo the candies ! 

Personal Update 

So this year(2016) is beyond ridiculous… I mean every year has it’s ups and downs. But it seems this year is one kick after another. 

My father passed away early in the beginning of the year. So I’ve been dealing with that. Trying to at least. Meanwhile it seems like I’ve been having a few medical issue after another. Talking with my Doctor and describing some my problems health and mental. Turns out I’m suffering from Depression and Anxiety. Which is causing problems with work and my family. Couldn’t deal with a lot of people all at once and would start to panic. 

Never spoke up for myself and just kinda rolled over. Stress eat…. It was a big mess really. But now I’m being medicated for it and things are turning around so to speak. So after moving forward with that, I had my shoulder finally checked out. About 10 years ago I had popped it out of the socket. Then had it violent put back in. Ever since, it’s been giving me problems and getting in the way of my job. At some points I wasn’t able to pick up my kids or nieces and nephews.

*** Need to stop for a moment. Doctor is hooking up with wires. I’ll explain in a minute.***

So after the Doctor looked at my arm and shoulders, had some x-rays done and found that there is a small gap between my clavicle and join. That cause the muscles to slip in and pinch. So he gave me a cortisone shot in the shoulder to help with the pain. Boy that was the weirdest feeling ever haha. But afterwards I was scheduled for physical therapy for the next couple of months. That was a lot of pain. So much I almost called out of work a few times. But now I’m finished with the therapy and get a shot in the shoulder if needed every other month.

Now the more recent updates and issues. While doing a follow up appointment, my Doctor wanted to see how the Depression medication was working as well as my shoulder. So while taking more x-rays, he stop and moved the machine down to the middle of my chest. Then took a series of x-rays and then proceeded to tell me that he found a dark spots on my lungs that wasn’t there before. Gave me a list of what could cause this or what it could be. As well the bad…. So he did some more tests and blood work and told he’ll let me know as soon as possible. Seeing how he was going on vacation that following weekend. Went back to work and almost broke down in front of my friend/boss…. I really didn’t know what to do. The stress of not knowing and waiting. 

I believe it wasn’t till Monday when I heard the news. It turns out that it was scar tissue, likely caused by a violent cough or throwing up.. So as of right now you are wondering why the Doctor is wiring me up? Well my Doctor wanted me to do a sleep test. This also linked to my depression and anxiety. It’s going to be interesting as to what they find in the moring. 

So till then, I will say goodnight!

Serenity

So the other day and dear friend of mine gave me a rather EARLY birthday gift. How early you ask? Well my birthday isn’t till October 21 haha. But these are beyond awesome and I now have or close to having the complete Firefly comic series. I haven’t been able to read them yet, but I think I will tonight.

Also if you were wondering what that currency was above the comics. That would also be a gift from my brother-in-law. A gift of money from Firefly😆. I’m thinking about framing it, as soon as I find one haha.

*Update*

I guess this wasn’t a Birthday gift hahaha. It was a bonus for coming into work and helping out. Hmmmm….. Still awesome! But now I was told that there is another gift for my birthday hidden somewhere….

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Sick…

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I haven’t been this sick in awhile. Hot ♨ and cold ❄ flashes, fever. Not to mention that my throat is killing me, along with a headache. I have things I need to do today, but I can’t. Missed out on work, which I don’t like doing. It’s be one thing if it was an office job, but I’m a cook. Being sick and making people’s food was never a pleasant notion for me. At any rate I think I’ll try and eat something and very more sleep. And yes that is me currently while writing this.. I think it’s the hair that pulls it all together.

So Long, and Thanks for All the Fish

So this post is more on the personal side. Which I’ve been know to do from time to time on here, aside from the nerdy fandom posts.
2013 was not the best year for myself.  Oh sure I had a few winning moments. But sadly that only made 10% of the events good. Where as the bad was around 90%… Lost one of the many battles over custody for my children, lost my job, car, lots of financial problems and even got arrested towards the end of the year.
Also founded out that I’m suffering from Depression and what would be the being stages of Agoraphobia. For those who don’t know what Agoraphobia is, it’s when you an anxiety disorder characterized by anxiety in situations. Like in wide-open spaces, as well as uncontrollable social situations such as the possibility of being met in shopping malls, airports etc. Also causes panic attacks in those environments. There are better definitions on Wikipedia if you care to look it up :).
So this week finished all the left over drama from 2013. Paving the way for a new beginning in 2014. A vary much needed new beginning…
After being hit with the proverbial enlightenment stick.  I’ve sought out getting help from a therapist and started taking parenting classes. I’ve Also registered for college in the fall. So today was the first day of therapy and it went rather well.  It was more of a getting to know each other type of meeting, haha to get a better understanding of my shenanigans.
With a new being on the horizon, I’ve started/join some new creative outlets.  One being this new podcast! Yay! This is something I’ve always wanted to do. But never knew how and or participate in one. Let alone on who to talk to about such a matter haha :). That was until last week when I got a tweet from a follower about joining his podcast group! At first I was nervous, not to sure of myself(Thank you Agoraphobia). But I pushed through it and jumped on board, because I knew I wasn’t going to get another change like this for awhile. Still a little nervous about everything, but I manage to finish an episode the other night. And went rather well, had a lot of fun and laughs. Can’t wait to record new episodes :). I’ve also started making a new layout for the website as well.  Things like a new logo, update the HTML5, I’ve also been playing around with c++. I’m also looking to add new writers to my site.
But all in all, things are getting better. 2014 as a “A New Hope” feeling to it.  I want to keep moving forward and make myself a better person.
So in ending this post I say to 2013,”So Long, and Thanks for All the Fish.”

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