City kid come back

I miss the city…. Always be a city kid, miss the life and being creative. I miss the crazy people you run into. Or telling a pop culture joke and having someone get it. I’ve had my fill of redneck country bumkins….. I need to change things up and fast, I feel like I’m starting to drown. No matter how hard I kick and swim, I can’t seem to make back on top to where I was at.
It seems that nothing as gone right from day one. Broken promises, stabbed in the back, broken heart, lost love ones, losing friendships, fail relationships… Being BROKE, living from pay check to pay check. I haven’t done ANY FORM OF ART in over 3 years. My biggest fear is never changing, never coming out of this slump that I was put into.
I’m tired… I never felt this way before.. I’m always tired now a days. Don’t want to leave, don’t want to see anyone. The idea of being social makes me twitch and second guess myself. Forget dating haha!! God, now there is some second guessing going on there. I think this past year with everything that as happen to me. Has really messed things up more than I thought it did…. I know I need to change, my problem is I don’t know where to start.

Poor little guy

It’s going on 6 in the morning and I’m still awake. Seems my youngest (Jax) is haven’t some bad breathing issues tonight. Gave him is meds and everything so that’s not a problem. Is just having to sit here to make sure everything kicks in/works right, so to speak.
I know both kids are starting to have small colds, I just hope it doesn’t turn into anything bad. I like sleep, I miss sleep haha.
Maybe I can train the cat in helping around the house and with the kids. God that would be funny to see haha.

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